sadness

if this secret hard to speak out, i will collection it in my heart, until my heart stop that day.. remember happiness, is u giving me brave to dance with u.. maybe that special understanding, only i can feel it.. start a little afraid of expect, because the reality and hope is the opposite.. distance from the warm, i can't hear.. really sound, i can't see.. want to heal, but the weather is not ideal.. dark clouds, no don't leave and escape.. just feel this weather, let people feel lonely and alone.. Pretend, no care anything.. Pretend, never mind.. Pretend, the next day or morning i will be quite.. This emotions are too unstable, but i don't want to undermine this distance.. so i just can only be wearing a mask, chating with u and play with u.. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ sadness, because everytime you just will said i just will help boys do something.. but you never know that or remember that, i also have help u do something.... you said i am never cook for you, really do no? you said i am never call you go out eat. really do not? still remember our dating? i think if that day i didn't speak out, you never know that and remember.. right? i know i be your friend, i should considerate you.. because you easily forget something.. but this time i can't tolerance already.. so i just want to put up my feeling at here.. no other meaning.. ============================================================================= my wrong? or attitude? attitude = me? or attitude not = me??