黑

深夜裡,總是摸不清自己的情感.. 就讓黑暗給埋伏吧! 看不清,或許也是一種答案!

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是不是大家都受過傷,所以彼此都不踏出那界線? 彼此都有一個黑影?? 如果一段沒信任的愛情,我是不會想要在去維持..

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許多感覺,說不出口.. 就讓它,埋在心理的黑暗深處吧!

默默

很抱歉,不是很想要有這樣的感覺.. 是不是忙到累了?其實也沒很忙.. 是不是睡不足?可是我有個完美的時間表.. 那到底是什麼?不知道.. 遲鈍的頭腦,總有一天會清醒的.. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- 魚,我們的承諾倒數兩天!!

對事的感覺

回來後,第一次沒和他skype.. 我轉簡訊騙他說,我睡覺了.. 他一封信息也沒回我.. 可能沒聽到電話響的關係吧.. 放心,我們沒吵架.. 他只是和小吳尊去台北找阿漢爸了,住台北一個晚上.. 他說會儘量上網找我,可是沒有.. 反而進了電話錢.. 現在的我反而希望他不進錢,這樣我就能和他見面了.. 有誰能體會這咸咸的思念? 我們的承諾,倒數3天..!! 我很想飛,可是少了另一邊的翅膀.. -------------------------------------------------------------------- *爸爸,有和我們保持聯絡.. 但還是很想他和媽媽.. 妹妹也漸漸的習慣,我照顧他們的日子了.. 之前他們還會想找爸媽,現在沒有了.. 也有可能爸爸固定和我skype的關係吧.. 所以他們也沒那麼找爸媽了.. 是不是這樣安靜的夜晚,我才會想家? --------------------------------------------------------------------- ^每一天做著相同的事情,自己快要瘋掉了.. 晚上好想找他們喝茶,可是我出去了誰照顧弟妹? 婆婆也會嘮叨.. 我哭,我哭~!! 哭不出來!!! 因為我過的生活很精彩!!

課程表

monday until wednesday

6:15~> call my sister wake up.. 6:45~> Go to school with my sister.. 8:15~> back home awhile.. 9:00~> cooking my sister breakfast( hamburger+milo, or sandwich + milk).. 9:40~> send to my sister scool.. 11:00~> times for AEC! haha 1:00~> go my grandmother house eating.. 1:40~>send lunch to my sister.. 3:30~>waiting my sister back shop.. 5:30~> times of accounts! and chores!! 7.00~> send my sister back my grandmothers.. 8.00~> eating time.. 8.30~> online.. 11.00~> grandmother will call me go to sleep.. In addition to today!! haha~

tuesday..

6:15~> call my sister wake up..

6:45~> Go to school with my sister.. 8:15~> back home awhile.. 9:00~> cooking my sister breakfast( hamburger+milo, or sandwich + milk).. 9:40~> send to my sister scool.. 11:00~> times for AEC! haha 12:40~> send luch to my sister.. 1:00~> go my grandmother house eating.. 3:30~>waiting my sister back shop.. 5:30~> times of accounts! and chores!! 7.00~> send my sister back my grandmothers.. 8.00~> eating time.. 8.30~> online.. 11.00~> grandmother will call me go to sleep.. In addition to today!! haha~ friday, morning also same~ but my sister back early in friday.. 12.40!! saturday and sunday also same!!! just no need send my sister go to school!! and them can accompany me 1days~lol~! *this holidays spend a lot time a shop only.. T.T

明天起

等等5點半,爸爸和媽媽就要去機場了..

我的時間,不能在像之前那樣了..

今天起就要7點起身了,比之前早一個小時..

之前雖然遲起一個小時,但中午我還是會偷懶睡覺..

現在我想不能在那樣子了..

我是真的要做個有責任的姊姊,竟然選擇回來,就要去完成這一切!

明天起,我們開始睡在婆婆家了..

方便弟妹去上學,一方面也是自己不會駕車的關係,所以住婆婆家是最好的選擇..

想想,突然覺得自己好沒有用,如果會駕車這一切應該都不是問題..

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friend, u always let me cry, let me laugh~ -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

大白癡,小男人,我們一定會埕的過去..相信我,相信你~! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

誰能試著了解,這咸咸的思念.. "魚"和眼淚,拼命的流下..

回家

回來了6天了~T_T 這暑假選擇回家的原因是要照顧妹妹~ 因為爸媽要去參加哥哥的畢業典禮! 首先我要和梁老師說聲對不起~ 因為之前有答應他,如果我有回來我就會做餅乾給他.. 可是我借不到廚房~T_T 對不起喔,老師~ 回來後,已經吃了很多想吃得食物~ nasi lemak, durian, 和等等~~~~ 哈哈哈~ 現在我要出去看店了~~ 命苦~~~ 回來了那麼久我還沒去逛街阿~ 只是和家偉,莉雅,吉文,和貴忠喝茶~~ 其他的人趕快回來吧~~~想你們~~~

im tired

last night, crying again.. same that damn problem! thanks for ur shoulder.. first time i feel my heart is hot.. i can't promise you, i wont cry.. but i can promise you, i will less crying.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ i am lost my way, my mind, who am i? in ur eyes who i am ? am is ur friend or is perfect friend? unfair!! u said u care me, but ur action let me feel bad.. i am start tired to restore our friendship.. when i hear somebody said, u still care our friendship, that time i really feel happy.. but now what can i do? because u have ur idea, i had my idea.. friend, if u understand me, you can knew which one is me in your mind.. smile FRIEND!! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 笨慧,順其自然!!!向身邊微笑吧!!